I think she's back

[Starshyne]

Call the lawyer again...she is at court. She will be back in an hour, but I am at work and will have classes straight through until 11. Maybe someone is trying to tell me something...

If he wants to be single that will mean that I am no longer a part of his life in any way. He can come and go as he pleases, but don't expect me to be there to help him at all in any way. I will be invisible to him. I wont' be there for him anymore. I know that he "isn't ready" to move out. I also know that things will change after May 19 when he begins his classes at the community college. It is going to be a difficult load and a very intense time. I honestly don't think he will be able to work part time, go to school, keep up with his homework and go out with his new girl (girls???). And what do I think he will do? Struggle and then come to his teacher wife for help with his classwork.

It also gets to me that I don't know who the OW is/are. Is it the girl he was seeing that I dont' think he ever got over? Or is it someone totally different who he said is "just a new friend." And if it is someone brand new, who is she? I know it shouldn't matter, but let's be honest. Knowing who the OW is something I think most of us want to know.

I imagine she is someone younger than him who makes him "feel young." Just as the prior OW did. Someone who isn't married or have any attachments. Someone who is free to stay out until 2am on a Wednesday and Thursday night. If I did that, I would be so beat that I couldn't function the next day. But I remember a time in my late teens/early 20's when I would stay out until 3am and get up and go to classes the next day.

I am babbling, I know...but I just need to think aloud and I have been keeping all this to myself this time (last time I told my mom and a few close friends).