I see that not many have posted lately on the boards; I do hope all is well with everyone!
This morning D15 and I had a great talk, she was telling me how she doesn't like how much her dad has changed, (she is a very wise young girl); back when her dad left us, he had picked her up to take her to get her ears peirced, while they were out and about, he asked her what she would do if he had met a really nice girl and they were living together...she said " I would be mean to her"..well, anyways...she then thought her dad had some other girl in his life (I of course didn't at the time want to believe it)...and now she is saying that she knows that is why he is not the same person he use to be. I told her that he will have to recover from the pain...and that right now I have decided that what is important is that we work on ourselves. She really wants to get in shape...me too, so I told her that summer is just about here, and that her and I can go on walks together, she got really excited about it! It's the little things in life that matter the most!
I have really been working on my self esteem, and yesterday I was writting down all my goals when h came up and saw what I was doing...he has noticed a change in me (exercising again, being up beat, and not questioning him on anything). He is now asking me if "I love him"...and even last night while we were laying in bed watching the b-game, he put his arms around me, held me tight and told me that "this is true love what we have" and got tears in his eyes, and said that he is filling my "love tank" (I think he might have been reading one of my books, " the five love languaes"). And this morning before he left for school, he huged me tight, kissed me so tenderly, and told me that he "loves me soooo much" and that he is going to miss me; and that felt good, but the difference now is that it is not a life and death situation for me if he loves me, in other words, I didn't anyalyze it like I have been lately.
I really am starting to feel better...I am really working on my PMA, and GAL, and my self esteem issues! Instead of dwelling, I am keeping myself busy.
Hope all is well with everyone... Love and (((((hugs))))) liz7
