Stronger - but still confused

[Snow White]

I am still feeling down.

Thursday is one of the only nights that I find has good TV so I watched Grey's Anatomy (and still contend perhaps H has a brain tumor(is anyone else watching?))
That show always makes me cry but last night right at the end Bailey said to Addison(who has been away for a bit) "I am not talking, I am not talking because I don't want to tell you that H left, that I am sleeping alone for the first time in 12 years because if I tell you that I am going to break down and I don't have time for that." or something along those lines. It really hit home, right down to the 12 years.

I don't like being alone, I don't want to be alone. I lived with my parents until we bought this house just prior ro getting married and moved out then.

I want someone to watch tv with, to talk about my day with to have supper with because my D only eats about 4 different things so it seems kinda silly to cook a roast for 1. I am so tired of waiting because I am too lonely.