Well, another night where H comes home at 2am. I am done. If he ever will be willing to live the life of a married man and commit to me, I would try again. However, his actions show me that he wants to be single. So fine...be single. I am not going to talk to him unless I totally HAVE to, no more calling/TM(that will be the hard one for me) and I am going to detatch as much as I can.

I am not going back to January and no one can force me back there. In January he was staying with the OW whenever he felt like it and with me whenever he felt like it. I was allowing him to use me and I felt like crap all the time. I am not going there ever again.

One of these nights I plan on not be home. Maybe sleeping at a hotel and just make him wonder where I am.

Like I said before....this all would be so much easier if there wasn't the emotional pain involved. I just feel like my heart is hurting so badly. I physically feel it.

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08