Hi all. Thanks LWB for all your support. Have not had access to net for a while but I am back.
Update: H is growing further and further away (did not think that was possible but he is!). D was sick and he was called at 11 in the evening, his response was i don't feel like coming if i really don't have to.....makes me made. Anyway i get a call later on and he asks where i am so i reply in car on way to hospital to have d checked. He says call when u get home. I did and told him I will sort it out. Few minutes later get a message that he is coming over. He stayed til 2am. I then heard nothing from him for 4 days. Then he arrived for his scheduled visit. I don't get it, not one call to ask how d is. Maybe some men out there can explain this to me cos I would die for my child!
Anyway d got sicker and ended up at Dr 3 times and needed to be nebulized. H did not call once to see how she was so I eventually called him and asked if he was in or out (not m cos he already said he 100% wants d, living new life with ow but still no D papers filed)in his d's life cos what he is doing is halfhearted. He came to visit in his usual time 2 days later, acted all sweet and then heard nothing from him until today. His visits have become shorter and shorter, from an hour and a half to 45 mins. He is preoccupied with new life and is visiting as a duty (I think).
Now I don't want to file for D and hand my h to ow on a silver platter BUT my h is really not a nice guy right now, wondering if he ever was. He is still lying to me, for no reason...what more could he possibly do. Waiting to hear that ow is pregant - just a suspicion. He is definitly up to something and is keeping another big secret form me i can feel it.
Another question: Why does he wear his wedding ring when he visits, I doubt he wears it any other time? I thought it was to protect me from hurt but dont think that anymore. Is it because he is a coward? Any suggestions. He has said he wants D and is living with OW (6 months now, 2 weeks after leaving me) why wear it?
Anyway I read in DB that the last resort could be giving those D papers. Phoning a lawyer on Monday to make an appointment. Biggest reason for this is that d and I are starting to suffer financially as h is contributing very little and does not make any attempt to help out.Not sure if this is the right thing but nothing else is working. This month will be the 7th months.
On my birthday in a few weeks he will be attending his ow's concert while I have my lonliest birthday ever. I just keep getting hurt!
I WILL SURVIVE AND I WILL FIND HAPPINESS AND IF HE DOES NOT RETURN I WILL FIND NEW LOVE AND BE BLESSED WITH A HAPPY FAMILY! (A big thing considering I do not know any guys as I mixed only with my h, his friends and my married friends.)
