For the guys with kids and a WAW

[hopeful4her]

wdid,

I have checked into a retro coming up in Austin. Be nice to it out of town. Weekend get away, you know. Also looking into the counseling. Family and individual. I live a crazy life, right now with her. May have to start doing some pushing, soon. Or wait until the summer starts and see if she is really going to move out. I don't see it, but you never know.

Got home last night and all the kids are outside playing. Inside, WW has started on dinner. Talked to WW earlier and asked me to bring some items from the grocery store. I also bought a couple of her favorite candy bars. At home, I ask if she needs any help. She asks me to check on burgers out on grill. I notice a couple of plants she has bought and had in kitchen. Outside, she had bought some items for the little temp kennel we wanted to make. She has made some Mexican rice, fajitas, potato salad and the burgers. She had also gone and bought the girls some new clothes.

I am acting as if everything is great. No sad looks and upbeat. Kids eat in front of TV and she starts to make cupcakes. I ask her what she wants to eat and I make her plate. I sit at dining table and WW joins me about 15 minutes later. We are both drinking a beer. WW states that she is full and would I like to finish her burger. I agree and take it. She finishes the dishes and kids are getting ready for bed. I am in bedroom and putting away clothes and WW calls her mother. I hear things like, "oh, were ok" and "yeah, were ok". Chit chatting and then WW goes out to the back deck and is on the phone with MIL about an hour. I can see her in back wiping her eyes, cleaning her nose.

I hope that MIL had the conversation that she is supposed to. I hope she provide good counsel. I pray.

Later, I am watching a video and WW comes in and says she is going to shower because she smells like bar b que. She comes out and asks about movie and lays on bed with me. Our normal viewing position. Movie finishes and we go to bed. Goodnight she tells me.

This morning, going through normal routine, I ask if she wants lunch made and she quickly responds no. Ok. Mind wandering. I do not show it. Still acting cool. No problems. After kids get on bus, I ask about nephew and if working today. She tells me that yes and they are going to do the same thing they did the other day. Now I'm really upset. She will probably be getting a ride from OM. I say nothing. We are getting ready and I ask something about the puppies and them licking her toes and she mentions something about her feet hurting lately. Outside together for our morning smoke her face is looking upset. That distant look like something is really wrong. I ain't gonna ask. I usually ask what the matter is. I ask her is she has made arrangements for herself for a ride. She says yes, like she didn't want to say.
I say ok and go inside, get my keys, tell her to have a good one. She quietly says you too. Regular face on me. I leave.