You're right, I know. However, it makes me wonder just how many times I will have to sacrifice my own needs and wants until he sacrifices even once for me.

My H has said to me several times since he's been back, "(GF), you've got it made. You don't have to go out and work a real job. I do that so you can be home with the kids. You should be happy. I don't know of anyone who wouldn't want to be in your shoes and live the kind of life you do."

WTH.....He thinks because I get to stay home with the boys and not have to work a job like his that I should be happy. He provides for us, takes care of us, the bills are paid, we have a nice home in a nice neighborhood.....WTH am I "complaining" about? This all should make me happy, and I should just stop giving him "BS" about it.

He doesn't want to go to MC, he won't read any books, he doesn't want to REALLY LISTEN when I try to explain what love is for me. I know what it is for him - I "speak" it and he reciprocates in HIS LLs - but he won't hear me out when it comes to me and my LLs. It's just more "BS".

*Sigh*...Frustrating, to say the very least.

He says he doesn't care. I can go do my own thing, go hang out with friends and family, whatever, he doesn't care. Basically, he won't say anything to me, so I should do the same.

What a crappy way to deal with things.


Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell