Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

Puppy,

You are right on - I think I am between antagonistic and destructive right now and I am the one that is keeping her from where she thinks she wants to be. I am definetly in self protection mode and now. A friend said that she is way ahead of you on this. I had the bomb 6 weeks ago, she has been dealing with this a long time and has been preparing. He actaully kind of cracked me up when he said the score is like CBK 10, CBK's W 70 - so even though you are starting to "score", you still need to protect yourself.

I still feel pretty good right now, some stomach turning. M and Sandie are right - hour by hour. I actually slept until 4:15 this morning - that is a full hour longer than usual - and no sleep aid except for natural herbs.

Big counseling session today, getting prepared. My DB coach was very helpful on the approach - just need to put it into play.

Peace,

CBK