Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

Thanks all,

Last night I was sitting on the porch reading and W thought I was in bed I guess. She was talking to her GF about the sitc' on phone with window open. She said that I was trying to be super husband and she just didn't want it and that on Sunday I was touching her on the hip and that bothered her. She wants to give OM until Oct. in her mind because she is in so deep emotionally with him, but feels she needs to start protecting herself. I then got up and walked back into the house.

My reactions - she is looking for things against me right now. Does this bother me, sure, but I am acting "as if". She probably thought I went to the store for her last night, I guess I shouldn't have bought that ice cream..., but actually, we were out of water, milk and fruit - so why should I depend on her to go to the store. That wasn't super husband, that was doing somehting for me and kids. As for the other guy and Oct. 1 - well, we will have to see. This isn't my W talking, this is a stranger. I hope she does protect herself from this guy, but right now, she is choosing not too, which is not good for her. Does Oct. 1 bother me, nope, I gave myself an internal date of May 1, 2009!

Well, just wanted to post this.

Peace,

CBK