Enjoying my life!!!

[kissak]

Thanks Nature Girl....I am looking into all I can.

I talked to my H yesterday. He said he wanted to know if I had signed the Sep papers yet. I told him there were things I wanted changed and I werent going to sign them until they were the way I wanted them. He asked "like what?"...first off the date!! He has Dec 07....I want them changed to April 6, 2008....he didnt sound to thrilled that i wanted them changed but he said ok. I did get angry with him over an email he sent my daughter...2 more that were basically blaming me for him not seein the kids that night and telling my Daughter that I was mean to him and sent him mean texts. He was trying to look like the good guy and make me look bad to our child. I was furious with him....I had worked myself up to the point of saying "I just want you to tell me its over. Your 100% done, finished and that there is no chance for us". I wanted to know. I needed to know he was done with all this childish crap!

Know what he said?

"I cant say that"

Typical...he still doesnt know what he wants, so he is playing the OW, right?

That...is wrong.

I think I am going to have to be the strong one and say "IM DONE".

But can I? I dont know if I am strong enough to do that yet.

Of course I wont give him a chance while he is still like this. I cant and wont.

But i have a feeling the OW is pushing him into getting these papers signed...but they dont mean anything, except financial security...not security he will not come back to me some day. I think that is what she is looking for.