Ten years ago today I got married. The weather was beautiful just like today, and I remember being thrilled because we could do pictures in the park across from the church.
I am reflective as the morning progresses. Fleeting thoughts. What made my H unfaithful? What is in the future? Will my girls be ok? But good things too. Knowing I will survive/thrive no matter what. That I am stronger now because of this experience. That I deserve more, and only time will tell whether H will be in the picture or not, giving me what I deserve. He can't right now.
H will avoid all topics regarding today, but that's ok.
Journaling:
Yesterday, H called to tell me he was going to be late getting here (so I could work). But....big change.......he gave me plenty of notice (so I could tell the girls)and found coverage for them all on his own. Four weeks ago, he texted me saying "I'm not coming" about 5 minutes before I had to leave. Big change. Means nothing other than he is possibly realizing we can do this peacefully.
He called me at work later, saying he was in traffic, but had called our neighbor (where the girls were) and informed her. He ended up being here on time anyway.
