Just Honest..

[SirPrizeMe]

These affair participants - it's like they are drugged. Honestly I think my wife felt her love for this guy like a drug. Maybe they did drugs together, too - he was a drug user and I would not be surprised if they did some ecstasy to aid their passion. Alcohol was her 2nd best friend during the initial affair.

Anyway, then she turns around and it's me, and it's a mortgage and cleaning our own toilets, and 4 kids and, y'know, regular life, getting up at 7am without a hangover, and being responsible parents. and there was no high there.

And so "the feeling" didn't return. Surprise!

It's like she wants it to be a hollywood romance or something. Stars in her eyes and fireworks.

All along I felt like I had been treated very badly by my wife but even still wanted to reconcile because my view of divorce always was that it was horrible, for the kids, for the couple, even for extended famil and friends. I hate it. So I was always willing to do the work to avoid it. But she wasn't. She wouldn't work. But now here we are - she and I - in the process of divorce, and the reality is... just what I expected. I'm broke, lonely, hurt. I miss my kids. She is only now just beginning to feel the practical reality. We have to sell our house and she'll get her own soon - I don't know what she'll use for money. She'll need a job. But this is her choice. I hope she finds happiness.