May I call you Didi? I noticed Sara called you that in one of her posts. I like that she found an easy name in the middle of your long one.
I've been reading your thread. Thank you so much for sharing the other side of this. It is so nice to see someone who is on the other side trying to save their marriage. It gives us lots of insight into the mind of the WAS.
I read a book that I thought was about a LBS, but it was more for the WAS. It was called "When Love Dies - How to Save a Hopeless Marriage" by Judy Bodmer. I think it might give you some insight and show you that your feelings are not that unusual given the hectic life we all live. It can be found on amazon.com.
Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon