uhhhh...this is SO hard! H still isn't home and it is almost 9pm. The last I heard from him was at 3pm. Said he had to work late until 5pm and then was going to work out. His work was going to be a half hour drive and he works out for about 2 hours total. I checked his debit card online and saw that he took $120 out of the ATM today. I believe he might be meeting OW #2 for dinner again. I don't know...why am I driving myself crazy with all of this bs??

I know I need to quit the snooping and the detective work trying to figure out what is going on. It is just making me obsessive and I don't enjoy that. When H comes home I will not question where he was. I will act as if he were at work and then working out. I am sure that he will give me some silly excuse as to where he was and why he is late. I will smile and pretend that it didn't bother me.

I went to church tonight and then made myself dinner. Then I worked some on one of my webpages. So I am doing thing for myself. And I swear I am trying not to dwell on my H so much, but it is so hard not to! So instead of calling him right now and saying "Where the heck are you??" I am venting it out here.

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08