I struggled for so long looking for signs of which way to go....then I found the sign and could not deny it anylonger. It just seems so ODD that it has to be this way? Why? Nevermind....I'm trying not to ask why anymore, just accept, do my best and keep going.
Jack, Amy and Heyya Angel!!
I know I know I know.....should have done this long ago. Guess I was waiting for that second chance. No pain no gain. LOL, you got that right my sistah!
Angel dude....I'm not sure if I remember how to "live it up" anymore!!! that makes me sad....but I promise I will try to remember what it was like to have fun, be fun, and most of all enjoy it!
MrsH, THANK YOU!
It is NOT healthy for us, it IS like living in a prison. A lovely prison, but a prison non-the-less. By living here in this house he still has control. I have none. This is not the way to live.
I read your posts and tried many times to tell you in a gentle way to step up and stand your ground, but this little voice kept telling me......take your own advice. It is hard!
Kiki......I read your post today. That is what made me decide to get this off my chest and out on the board. At this point the truth will not set me free, I will have to set myself free. Kinda dramatic huh? But it's the truth...so it will set me free. May not set him free.....but thats not my fault anylonger. He has to deal with what he's done. I've dealt with mine.
You know, it makes you feel like [censored] when you have to go to this extreme. It makes you second guess everything.
I miss the days when I was guillable and believed what was told to me, I miss my innosence. I really do. I like everybody, I tend to trust everybody. I feel that most people DO have good intentions. I still want to believe that.
Anyway, I am rambling away now, but wanted to say Thank You.
Hugs!
Jeanette
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
