Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

Well just got back. CA is a no-fault state and court will pretty much split everything down the middle. I have records of finances and L said that was all I needed. If I thought something was screwy, they could always order the documents from the investment firm.

The biggest news is that I would have to pay alimony indefinetely! I was floored. I said, "like the rest of my life?" She said until one of you dies, remarries, or 'possibly' retirement. Oh well, I am hopeful that we don't get here...

My IC went well today. He is very pro-marriage and said the same thing you all are saying - never say never, she may come back around. He has seen all the way up to the D people reconcile. It made me feel much better, not overly so, but just hearing those words gave me some energy. But, in some ways, the L took them down a bit.

I feel good right now, I am off to the range to get another golf lesson, see if I can take that wicked slice out of my ball, just can't bring my hips around fast enough!

Peace,

CBK