Yesterday morning at work I was walking around campus with a smile on my face for no reason. I was happy to see the kids, happy to be working there, happy to be walking around and feeling the sunshine on my skin. Then I reflected on how I was the months after the bomb, when tears would regularly well up in my eyes. When I couldn't even function like a normal human being. Wow. What a difference.
If any newcomers are reading this, I guarantee your life WILL get better, eventually. It is truly amazing.
SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
Thanks for the feedback about my posts. I try not to get too much into navel gazing...and I also like to think about the readers who may still be in that shell-shocked state we have all experienced. I also (like you) post to help me clear my mind and get my thoughts into some kind of order... Writing
So anyways, I have been feeling "blocked" lately. Lately being for about six months or more...I have been feeling inefficient and somehow like parts of my life could be working better. As I posted before I will be getting back into therapy...next week is the "orientation" session and then I get to schedule the individual session. (New insurance, don't you know) But in typical fashion, I feel I have to do "more".
Has anyone here had any experience with The Artist's Way? I have heard about it for years, knew people who have been highly successful working with Julia Cameron's method. Because it is based on writing I thought I would give it a try. I am not sure why I haven't done this before, but anyway, I am starting now. She asks for a 12 week commitment. The 2 cornerstones of her method are the "morning pages" and the "artists date"... The morning pages are written first thing as soon as you get up, in longhand. 3 pages worth. This is supposed to do multiple things, including siphoning off the internal chatter so that you can get to the meatier thoughts, or also allow your right brain/left brain to dialog on paper. The artist date I have always done anyway...but this is supposed to be more often, more consistent. The artist date is anything that is different that feeds your soul. So Anyways, I will be doing this for 12 weeks, basically all summer. It will be interesting to see what comes of this.
Feeling Foolish Well it is a good thing 73 yr old men (and others) have been flirting with me! Otherwise I would be much more upset about the lack of communication between me and CG. To be honest I am feeling quite a bit like Charlie Brown and let's just call CG Lucy!
He has been out of town and busy...but silly me thought that maybe I would hear from him right about now. I was reading This thread about "Damaged Goods" and it gave me a little more insight. I think that is what we are dealing with here. Oh well!
Today I have a workshop in the morning...then a few short errands, then I will take the wonder dog for a nice long walk by a local creek! We both need a break, and I think it will be fun.
May is going to be a very busy social month for me. I have a major party scheduled for every weekend! Including one at my house on the 17th. More to keep my busy and more GAL...
Take care friends, SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
Hey SG, chin up and baloney to feeling foolish? (Was going to get out my thesaurus but figured "baloney" works just fine )
First of all, you are one heck of a catch but for the RIGHT person. Who can really truly read another person (CG) anyway and yet, you may even be reading him properly but then something in him changes.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained right? So, continue kissing the frogs and one of them may just turn out to be worthy of long term kissing.
Committed2Him- "C2H" All Things (Back from Spain!)...18
SG, I remember that thread and even responded to it. We "are" in a place where for the first time in decades, it's all about us. And....I like it......a lot!!! We've spent years raising kids, catering to X's, having careers and now it's our turn. I want to drag this portion of my life out for as long as possible!!!
SG, We "are" in a place where for the first time in decades, it's all about us. And....I like it......a lot!!! We've spent years raising kids, catering to X's, having careers and now it's our turn. I want to drag this portion of my life out for as long as possible!!!
Amen to that!!!!!
Later Friend Briget
The grass is always greener over the septic tank... Erma Bombeck
Treat hate with Love... DR. Martin Luther King
SG, I worked with The Artist's Way a few years ago and now have maybe four years of daily journals. The writing is most helpful, I love it and I do it every day. It helps so much to clear the clutter, as well as an opportunity to record dreams. Wonder
Well this morning was nice, took Argo to the dog park and had a great time. Then went to the garden center and got a bunch of plants which will go into containers in a few minutes. Spent some time talking w/DD...things are good in her world.
Still no word from CG...One of my friends predicted I will hear from him middle of next week. I am not sitting by the phone however, and I took the plunge and joined e-harmony...which one of my friends has been having good luck with. I was busy viewing matches and sending out questions when the Doc's office called. I had a full physical last week and now Radiology wants to do more extensive work following my mammogram.
I was able to schedule it for Monday afternoon. Because of my six biopsies about six years ago I think they are ultra cautious. Darn it!~ I hate all these procedures. But I think it is better to know than to let things go un-investigated.
Tonight I am invited to a fun party...tho I am not feeling very social at this exact moment. Off to garden and do some landscape therapy.
SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
I'm trying to book a mammogram this week too. Can't seem to get hold of the place.
I'm glad you don't have to wait too long - that's a good thing. It will be a bit of a worry no doubt but better if you don't have to think on it for more than a couple of days.
I would love to go to a fun party tonight. Don't get to go to many when I always have an 8 PM curfew with Ryan. Don't get me wrong - I get out when I really want to but a nice party would be good.
Garden and landscape therapy is always good. It is a wet weekend here so I didn't go to the cottage. I'm working on indoor tidying up and some crafts. Not so bad.
I hope that you have a good w/e and your test results are great!