Patience is key

[addie]

Ping, CBK, Kalni, Jen, thanks for checking in. I have been keeping busy even when H was away. S and I went to a movie and also out for ice cream. I work out regularly, have joined a walking group, and take several interest courses.

I don't know how realistic I am with the expectations. As H keeps reaching out more and more, it becomes more difficult not to develop any expectations, although I haven't shown this to H. In fact, I've been somewhat distant lately because I find I can detach better that way. However, I find I haven't really detached, I've simply buried all my feelings and am afraid they'll all come out at some point. I'm feeling frustrated with all the mixed messages he is sending. He is very confused and I don't want to be dragged into that confusion.