Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

Addie - so good to have you back. I think I closed an entire string when you were out for only 2 days! :-)

I am going to make an appointment with my doc for a physical just to be sure everything is going okay. I have moderatly high cholosteral (spell), but that should go way down with all of this. I appreciate the concern.

I actually feel good going to the L - it is for protecting myself, and that is just the smart thing to do. I am sure Puppy is going "finally, he listened to me" :-) I have a great support group on this network, I would not have gotten through the other night without it.

I am so glad kids are home, this makes it easier for me in many ways. I know I cannot be in pissy mood or crying around them, I am always upbeat and willing to do anything with them. They can sense my pain and they ask me to do lots of stuff with them. S19 just asked if I wanted to go shopping for movies with him, will go tonight rather than hit the gym.

Today is better than yesterday, so that is good. I am thankful for many things right now. I also had to tell my mom to quit calling me - I felt bad and she means well, but I would just start feeling bad when I talked to her. So will try to keep to once or twice a week. She will IM later today, I think she knows my schedule better than I do! :-) Gotta love moms (you being one of them) - they hate to see their kids get hurt.

You take care of yourself too Addie.

Peace,

CBK