Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[addie]

CBK,
I'm sorry you had a couple of really rough days. Unfortunately, that is part of the rollercoaster most of us are on. I'm glad you seem to be doing better.
Have you seen a doctor about your weight loss? Although most of us end up losing weight, you've lost A LOT in such a short period of time.
I agree with what others have said. There's no harm in getting a consultation with a lawyer but don't start proceedings and don't tell W about it unless she files first. As far as MC, it may be better that you postpone it until OP is out of the picture and W is willing to try working on the M. You haven't had any success with it so at this point it seems pointless.
IC is important - good luck with that today. I hope you can get out and do some things for yourself.