For the guys with kids and a WAW

[hopeful4her]

About three weeks before her stroke, I told WW that I wanted to schedule a "Weekend to Remember" that was coming in town. She very reluctantly agreed and told me she would do it just for me. This was at time that we had just argued about our R and she said it in an ugly way. Basically, I would be taking her kicking and screaming. The weekend was schedule during what ended up being the second to last week of her being in the rehab hospital. I asked her if she still would attend with me and she told me yes. We had to get all sorts of approvals. She still was not able to walk. We got the approval from the rehab and insurance but had to have her back every night.

On the Friday, she had had a busy day of rehab, so she was really exhausted and was falling asleep during the sessions. It was only a couple of hours long.

The next day, before we went in, we started to argue about OM and she told me she did not want anymore contact with anyone, he and I included because she had to focus on rehab. We went in and went through a couple of sessions. Last session before lunch, we were to write a love letter to each other. Hers ended up being more of a thank you letter. She did love me, and thanked me for being a father to her son when his real one wasn't around. For being a great dad and great friend.

Break for lunch, raining outside, trying to get her from wheel chair to car, getting drenched, I have to literally pick her up around her waist to get her in. She tells me to wait and we are in the rain, my arms around her waist, her arms around my neck and she gives me a big kiss on my cheek. At this point, I hadn't had any physical contact with her since September. None. It was now second week of December. OMG. It was great.

However.....

Get to restaraunt to eat lunch. Great time. She brings up R, and we start to go back and forth and bango! She is crying, I am feeling terrible. I take her back to rehab because now I am afraid that something is going to happen to her. On way back, I am ranting and asking why God is doing this to us. I tell her about the emails that I had found from before to other men. She says that that was then and she had repented for that. It went terrible but could have been great.

Trying to get info on Retro and trying to think about gettin WW to it, but getting her to it is a different story.