Yes, I have great friends. Supportive. Smart like the ones I meet here.
Make me feel special- No. That is the problem I am having. The things in life that I enjoy do not bring pleasure as they should anymore. I play pool 2 nights a week on different teams. I started trapp shoooting season last week. Shot in the state pool tournement. I meet with friends and do things. I date one person (but we have an understanding) and I am on a singles site that I have been out with several for lunches (trying to find some chemestry). I have a great sense of humor. And the people I hang with and work with are a riot....but I have not laughed in months. Smiled but not laughed. My C and Physchiatrist are both aware of this. My friends are aware of my lack of laughter too. I go to these things but there is no drive.
Facing death- Facing death or just going into a pitch black enviorment in a fire, I have tried to think of other things but she and her girls are the ones I see in my mind. House layouts are pretty common. Especially in the houses I work in. You reach out feel a couch know there is either a coffee table or there isn't. Room isn't very big. Then a chair, then the tv/stand. Once Identified, the mind goes back to her and the girls. No. I don't hink of anyone but her but I have tried.
Needed-we both needed but this was never an issue of one needed more than the other.
30+ calls. The phone towers were overwhelmed with calls. All circuits busy try again later. About 30 times before my circuit was in line to call. Everyone who had a cell phone was on it.
Rely- no, its give and take and I miss the giving as much as the taking.
