Time to worry about you. If you read what you've written abover, an awful lot is worried about what she is or isn't doing. That doesn't matter anymore, and she's not in that spot for you anymore. Yeah, it does suck, it does hurt, it is scary. So, what is it, after the work you did in the past, that put you back to looking to someone else for security and happiness? What did you stop doing for yourself when she entered the picture?
