Well, if you find a way to get to that calm level place and stay there before I do I expect explicit directions!
Actually the battles within myself with my actions was what I was calling stupid. Sometimes, most times probably, I set myself back with David, more than anything external does.
And I do realize I am getting tons of positives and don't really have it bad. But it still hurts. I can't imagine being where some of these people are now. But I was where he was saying no chance and wanting to hurry D so I went through a small fire! Should have leveled out by now. Things are better.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Sometimes, most times probably, I set myself back with David, more than anything external does. 
Things are better. 