four days left till h comes back. he is dark too. nothing from him. i expect him being decent for 1-2 days after he is back and then all the hell will break lose. he is coming back from overseas so that when his tiredness, time change, etc will take over. i have my girlfriend who needed a place to stay till the end of may living at our house (he agreed). so i hope that her presence will contain the outbursts to some extend. or he might come back all calm and resolved and ready to d.

i am at a place where i do not want to do anything - like being upbeat, pretty, or in any way caring re him. i just want to be myself - take it or leave it. i am happy when i am happy, i am sad when i am sad.

i do not want to engage in any conversations with him. i will have to - decisions re selling the house, etc. i just so angry that i have to go through it. yes we came to the point where our m was not well together, but his decisions on pa and s and ow made it where it is now.

sh!*&! i am angry!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is his second m. he forgot his first wife - why would i think that my situation would be different. his 1st m was for around a year, ours was going on 20+ - but the result seems to be the same. he has the kid from the 1st m - didn't stop him, our two kids wouldn't stop him as well - he rationalizing that because they are grown up - it will be ok. the main thing is for him to be happy - that what he said before, point blank.


me, h - 40+
m-20+
s, d, ss - 20+
s, ow, pa since 04.2007
h back and forth 01.2008 - 05.2008
h decided to be w/ow 05.13.2008
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