Update: H text me tonight around 8:00, and said: "I am confused and I have a lot of doubts, I need time to think. Have you figured anything out"?
I responded at 10:00: "Take your time and think about things and when you want to come and talk to me - get ahold of me".
H text back: "ok, thanks".
This was him trying to manipulate me into telling him how I feel in a text message rather than facing me. Again!!!
I am glad I didnt fall for it, and now its up to him to make a decision. I'm sure it will take a while - he is so confused.
I am gonna try and prepare myself for when I have to face him, and now I feel like I am starting to figure out what to do. I need to make him feel more and more like he is gonna lose me. I need to get rid of my fear of loosing him forever. I need to focus more on what I want and what is important in a relationship to me and voice those things in kind ways.
I have to find a way to accomplish these things - it will be very hard for me and rather scarey. The only tool I have is to pray. TIPPER
