Today I blew it - The reason is that I feel so lonely, I miss my family, being all together, that was my life and I miss it is so much. I so W in the evening - she has been unreachable the all day - she said she helped OM with his car(?) - I couldn't resist I asked if there was anything in the world I could do that would make change her mind about D - she said NO, she is sure 100%, doesn't matter what I do or change. I felt so much like crying.... I didn't but for sure I wasn't my best self. It was so clear she doesn't love me anymore.
