Beauty is still holding on ths site and kids..

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Today's thoughts....
I had time to think about my situation today. What do I want? That is my question. And the answer is stable marriage... that is the only thing I want. I want his commitment to work on us. No less than that. If he continue to be 'I love you but I am not in love with you' and 'i want to be your best friend', I think I have to give up. So I will have to show him what the boundry is if he choose not to work on M. So, today I made a difficult dicision. I told him that I will not go to family reunion as his friend. That's only thing I texted him. He refused to talk to me right now.

I would love to go to the reunion, be with him and his family. I do feel like if we go to the trip, something postive may come up between us. At the same time, I don't think a trip can make him to commit to relationship.

Really confused (as usual)
Beauty