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[kissak]

Thanks Grace...but it is amazing what will set me off lately!!

UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My H is such a jerk!!!

DO you know what he did?????

He was supposed to be out of town all week. 3 1/2 hours away from here. Tonight is usually his night with the kids. But he spent a couple of hours with the kids on Sunday since he wouldnt see them tonight or again until Friday night.

Well, at 5:30 this evening I passed him here!! I called him to make sure everything was ok...I did not expect to see him. He said that class got out early today and he had some things he needed to take care of here, so since he had the time....uh? I said to him, so you could have gotten the kids tonight then? He said "I guess I could have". He is at her house. I told him that it was dumb of him to waste that much gas just to go back in the morning. He has to be back by 8am.

I am furious. I was so mad that I texted him and said "see what I mean? You came all the way back here to see her and not your kids. They saw you and now they are upset with you".

HE DID NOT REPLY!! UGH!!! My kids are upset, Im upset...I dont know what to do. I have however unplugged my phone for the night. If he got off early and came all the way down here to do "some work", he could have had the commen decensy to come at least get his kids for supper.

JERK!!!! I dont want him back. I dont like him, I cant stand him at this point. You know today I did what I do alot of the time...I type up a letter to the OW, I type with the intention to send...but I know deep down I never will..In my letter today, I read it many times....I think the light bulb finally went off! I kept reading the sentence "you will never trust him, let him be my problem, I made promises to him, not you"

WHAT?? I cant believe what I was saying. I dont want him to be my TRUST issue...LET HIM BE HERS! I cant do this. I dont want to. HE has so far to go to ever even be considered in my life again.

UGH!! Thanks for letting me vent!!