Well.....nope. Unless focusing on slowing one's heart rate is considered meditation, I'd have to see "nay".
I'm definitely in the "consumed by fire" stage. It appears as though I am exploring new levels of pain and despair. I hope that you, and all who read this, do not interpret my statements of late as a cry for help, I am merely exorcising the darkness that keeps welling up inside of me. I am trying not to censor my thoughts and feelings right now. The level of fear that I am grappling with is clouding my thought process and I'm trying to report back (kind of like Jodi Foster in the movie "Contact" after being flung into another dimension) my experiences as they unfold. I hope to emerge eventually with a new level of understanding.
I can only hope for an evolutionary change in my outlook and find something constructive to fix my vision to.
Unless focusing on slowing one's heart rate is considered meditation, I'd have to see "nay".
