I'm so sorry that you're struggling physically AND to have h not be able to handle supporting you right now -- ugh. As hard as it is to believe, understand, fathom, it may just be that he CAN'T be there for you without you doing some "as if" stuff first.
I'm glad that he was warmer with you last night.
Thinking of you! Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
As hard as it is to believe, understand, fathom, it may just be that he CAN'T be there for you without you doing some "as if" stuff first. 