Yes he's still taking meds; Effexor, which in the UK is an antidepressant they only give after the first 2 or so havent worked. Kind of a last resort. He was taking 300mg a day, but since Jan he has been coming down (as discussed with doctor) and is now on 150mg daily. Which is still a fairly high dose. H says coming off the meds is the only way he thinks he will be able to find out how he really feels about stuff.
The main thing I notice about him is that his spark in his eyes have gone, if that makes sense? Looking at the wedding DVD and old pics he looked so 'alert' but now his eyes look so sad and lifeless. Thats whether he's with me or not.
But he is adamant that he doesnt love me they way he should love a wife, and that he is depressed because he feels guilty and unhappy about being in an unhappy relationship. Not sure there's much I can do about that. I am going to GAL and do a 180-I used to support him so much, I think I forgot who I was and what I needed from a marriage.
Its just so difficult!!!!!
Thanks again
Lea xxx
Me-26 H-27 T-10 years M-20 months First bomb-Feb 07 Second bomb-March 08
