Thanks GL, I am going to keep on the path that I am on. I feel much better on this path. I feel I am off the rollercoaster as I have no expectations right now.
My guess too would be that she is observing me at this time and I WILL NOT give her any amunition to shoot me with. I will keep my upbeat attitude and the thinking of "it is what it is".
There have been 4 success stories on this board this week alone. I plan on making it another success story in due time.