Bizarre, ND, Kerry, Tomato, Ali, and Kalni - Don't worry about my reading too much into the migraine and getting my hopes up too high. I was merely wishful thinking on my part knowing I can't waste time dreaming about OM being revealed or W feeling guilt. Again, I was just daydreaming for a bit and enjoying the visions. I'm grounded and ready for the next wave of her attacks, but it was nice to dream for a bit.
Thank you all for your support and encouragement. I agree w/ you, Bizarre, Ali, and Kalni, that it does say something that she reached for me when she needed help. Somewhere, deep down, she knows I'm not the monster she is making me out to be to help justify her story. I also hope the ice is thawing a bit, but as Kerry, Ali, and Kalni warned, I won't get too high but just look at the little steps and keep on my current course.
My DR coach (Jody who is worth every cent I'm paying even though I'm stretched out financially) has me working on ignoring the positives (which I'm much better at doing now) and making sure I reply to her positives and when she is nice (which I did yesterday and today -- more on that later).
Ali, I'm glad you think the lint picking is a small baby step for me to tuck away. I'm sure it was unconscious, but it was affectionate on a small level. Also, Ali, I like your idea about talking to her about the phone calls. I'll work on how best to address this one.
Finally, SPM, my man! You are back and I'm so glad you stopped back by. I think my ability to be patient has improved greatly in the past month or so and I am more confident in dealing w/ W's moods than before. It is getting easier, and I'm still trying to be the man. I'm so glad to get your feedback and encouragement again.
Thank you all for your support. I truly treasure all that you have to offer and only wish I'd found this little community sooner.
I'll give an update in my next post from last night and today.
