Unleash the 2x4's and Let the Beatings Begin

[CBK]

MFT -

Although our sitc' is similar (I don't think there was an A in yours was there?) - I am with you mentally. As you read on my string, I have been everywhere but where I need to be. I keep telling myself to stop being the victim and start GAL - much easier said than done. I have been reading a lot of posts from What Did I Do? - she is a WAW and is trying to mend. But check her posts - they have given me hope - I had none last night.

I am not looking forward to going home tonight, but need to act "as if" - again, everybody makes it sound easy - I have a hard time, but will when I walk in that door. I also keep hearing the words, make me a better me, not only will I benefit, others will as well. I keep repeating that to myself.

I feel like such a hypocrite writing to anybody right now - I have been all over the place - a total basket case. I know how bad I am going to be hurting tonight when I get home, but I can hold those emotions until I get into bed - but until then, I stay strong for me and my kids - if WAW wants to follow, and God I hope she does, then we all benefit.

I hope this helps. I do wish they would allow us to give IM addresses and stuff like that - but keep the faith.

CBK