It is one of those things that if he goes through with this D, I need to have done. I am still hopeful that he will change his mind about us, but I have to be realistic too. I want to have a nice place to raise my kids. I have been going through the steps of this without much emotion, just like a robot doing the things I know I need to do. It is just that today it hit me pretty hard that I am REALLY doing this. One of those smacks of reality that I thought I was prepared for, but apparently I wasn't. It isn't really about the land at all. I am fully prepared to close on it. It just feels like I am closing a chapter with H. He has told me that the land means nothing. It isn't something we can't sell. If we reconcile we can always sell it for a profit, but actually doing it now is hitting me harder than I thought it would.
