I have hope, but the hope lies in S. will be okay, Dad will be okay and I have done everything I could to rebuild the M. There isn't anything I haven't tried.
In regards, to her, I believe she will see the light some day, and I hope it doesn't damage her further. Knowing the person she is and the amount of guilt she already feels I worry it can consume her. She is so prideful and doesn't ever ask for help.
I picture it as keeping a little space open for her, and she can enter with actions, not words. But I have let go for the most part, and I feel pretty good most days, even when she is miserable I just roll and handle the work, the house work, and our S. Meanwhile some days are a real struggle for her.
What is comical about it, is she filed not me and she has more bad days then I do. What is also laughable is I offer her opportunities to visit the folks and go out with friends and I just go about my business. Meanwhile she tells me she feels trapped. She is trapped, but it is not me who is trapping her, until she figures it out on her own there is nothing more I can do.
That is strange. I offer invites for her to go to my family functions also. She usually declines especially since I told my mom and dad about the D.
My W has cut me out of all her family stuff. It is pretty amazing. Must be the guilt.
