All I can do is hope that our convo made an impact on him and will get him to really think. He does need to realize that my feelings aren't BS, and yes, that I have needs as well. Everything cannot just be what he, and he alone, wants.
He is behaving a little differently tonight. His coworker is here again, and they're both outside having some beers. Anyway, he actually sat with the boys and me at dinnertime this evening (he hasn't for the last week or so), he's been giving ME lots of WOA (compliments about dinner and thanking me for being generous with coworker being here), he's been touching me lightly on the arm and on the small of my back, he's initiated a few hugs this evening as well, and I even got a kiss on the cheek from him.
That is all really terrific, but truthfully, I am still wary. I worry that it's only temporary to diffuse the current tensions between us and that it won't actually be a continued effort.
Hmmm.....dunno.
One day at a time. That's all I can do right now.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
