I was on an anti snooping week, but it got the best of me.
What I read, don't ask how or where...
My wife is totally out of the M, she has been for years and doesn't want to work on it. Everything I say, she turns it back around on my - that I have a big ego, that I did this and that. The OM is in counseling, but he is not coming clean about he A - W is okay with that but still say they are totally in love and he will always be a piece of her. For me, there is no desire what-so-ever to work on the M, none, zippo. She saw a lawyer today, after she said she "has" not yet. She wants the house if she leaves, she found out today that isn't going to happen. The L says you sound like you have been emotionally divorced for years, great, now I have the L going against me. I can't even paraphrase what I read, but if you were to read it, you would say walk away... I know I shouldn't snoop, but I had the guy feeling about he L, need to protect myself now. Will go see one on Wednesday.
It seems so far gone to me now, she said even when she looks at me in the eyes, no love there, never will be. WTF - I am at a total loss. Snooping getting the best of me again.
What she says, that I found got my needs met with my job and I ignored her. That they all stroked my ego and I loved it, I probably did.
Part of me says kick her out, separate the bank accounts and say good luck... I don't know what to do. Friggin snooping... this is why you should not do it. I know don't listen to most of what they say, but what about what they write?
I thought the conversation last night was just okay, according to her, it was all about me, I don't get and I am just to late.
Advice - don't tell me not to snoop and shame on you - that I get.
CBK
M=46 W=47 M=24 (together 26) D21, S19 Bomb 3/16/08 OM 3/28/08 WAW moved out 5/16 Divorce final 10/09
