Holy hell, I come to check in on you AmyC and I read all this....
You just let me know if you need this down south Jew boy to go off Old Testament style on any of these folks......
I got your back...........
Hang in there Amy, your road gets less bumpy each passing day. Before you know it, it will be like walking on clouds.
I know it is not necessarily your style, but there is a great book by Rabbi Harold Kushner that I would love to send you.....
One quote from it... .
Quote:
"Life is not a trap set for us by God, so that He can condemn us for failing. Life is not a spelling bee, where no matter how many words you have gotten right, if you make one mistake you are disqualified. Life is more like a baseball game, where even the best team loses one-third of its games and even the worst team has its days of brilliance. Our goal is not to go all year without ever losing a game. Our goal is to win more games than we lose, and if we can do that consistently enough, then when the end comes, we will have won it all." God does not expect us to be perfect as this is not part of human nature. While the guilt and shame that haunt us as part of sin are normal consequences of our sins, it is functional to know we are in error.
