Thanks Mark. I looked at the site briefly but will have to go back later and take a look when I have more time.
Well, things with me are weird. W and I just spent almost 2 weeks together on a vacation (the why behind that is a whole story unto itself) and it went really well. We got along great, were very close and didn't fight the whole time, something we've never been able to do.
But, and I hate to be negative, I noticed something. Before we went, she was understanding and caring and loving and totally the person I have been waiting for. And slowly, over our time together, she slowly fell back into her old ways. More judgemental, more sharp tounged, less apologetic. I didn't even notice what was happening until just before the 2 weeks was up.
I noticed a trend too. Whenever I wanted to talk about the R and was generally needy, she couldn't wait to get away from me. But the second I started ignoring her and acting like I couldn't care less what she did, she was all over me. I know this is a proven truth in these parts but it struck me as disturbing because it doesn't strike me as a healthy way to relate to your spouse. I mean, I don't want to play those kind of head games with my W. I want to be needy sometimes and not worry about her ignoring me as a result. It just feels like I can't be me if I'm worrued about how she's seeing me. Again, I know this is a well worn path around here, I'm just whinning a little to get it out.
