Yes, the anger could be due in part to impatience. However, I noticed this rage forming after I discovered that my H's promise a while back - "I'm going to tell you the truth from now on, no matter how unpleasant" (he made that seemingly sincere promise on his own without any prompting from me) - was in itself a lie. He has since then broken that promise over and over again.
Why bother to make the da*% promise in the first place! Now I feel like he was just trying to give himself more playing area.
I really don't know what to believe anymore.
Even those times when he swore that he was telling me the truth, I later found out that he was lying then too!
Is building trust with me so unimportant to him? Is his word worth nothing? Will I ever be able to believe him again about anything?
I'll continue to try and take it one day at a time, but in light of my discovering H's lack of honor, it's going to be a lot more difficult. I was ready to forgive and move on before, but this has mangled something inside of me.
Sorry to be so negative. I know you and others are trying to help me with my mental attitude, I'm just having a rough time getting to higher ground.
