To watch my H lately, you'd think I'd be calm and happy. Oh but no! I've been so angry lately. I seem to be swirling in a cloud of rage. I keep trying to redirect my energies but am unable to sustain a change.
I don't think this is unusual or unexpected at all. It wasn't THAT long ago that you and h revisited the subject of ow, right?
Quote: I know this sounds awful, but I actually have violent thoughts running rampant in my head at times. Sometimes it is directed at him, sometimes at OW.
Guilty as charged, too! It's weird, though, that I don't think I've really ever had the thoughts directed at my h. (he may be relieved to hear that! ). It's always been about doing something bad to ow.
Quote: Yesterday, when my H called to tell me that he had to work late, my heart started thumping so hard in my chest I had to lie down. Right now my palms are sweating.
Ah, hon. I'm sorry. Still taking the SAM-E? Are you meditating at all? Eating? My anxiety period passed after a few days (the constant anxiety) and now only returns occasionally. Stay strong. I know you'll get there!
Quote: Just journeling and whining.
Jeannine
Journeling, yup. whining? never!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
). It's always been about doing something bad to ow.
