chapter 1 of DR is "start with a beginner's mind". It's hard, but you just have to take it at face value. With H's company picnic, I freaked out that he could spend an entire afternoon with OW, and I would be elsewhere, but you know what? He could be goofing around all day long, and I would be none the wiser. I am happier if I don't know, and just take it day at a time. One day at a time. P.S. I'll mail you 30 pounds, okay?