Supermom and the Brighter Tomorrow

[JennyF]

Hi blindsided...thanks for checking in on me!
I haven't been posting much...but I check in now and then.

H has D & S overnight tonight for the first time at his new place. I've been really feeling a lot of emotion again...his R with OW is so real and so 'normal' now and it's hard. Everything is 'them' now...including my kids and it drives me nuts.
But...when I start to feel like this and it can get overwhelming I just remind myself that my kids need time with their Dad. They're safe and they're happy...that's what matters.

I met at the bank today and found out that I can qualify for this house I want on my own. It would be tight, especially depending on how all the financial doc's shake out. But we'll see. I really want this house bad. It would make the transition of leaving this house so much easier for her if we lived on the same street as her best friend!
There is a lot going on right now and I can't make a decision on the house until I know where I stand financially. Tomorrow I meet with my lawyer to see where we are in the process.
On top of that my house isn't even on the market yet. I'm going to get it ready over the next week.

So needless to say a lot of stars have to line up for this to work out before the house I want sells. But I figure I'm store for some good karma so why not? I'm just going to take my time going through the process to ensure I'm making the best decisions possible and if the house is still available when it's right...perfect. If not it wasn't meant to be....but man I want that house!

Other than that I'm keeping busy still consulting for the Yoga Studio...I'm loving the classes.

One interesting thing...last week my brother and his wufe almost separated. He wanted to leave her. Seriously. After 10 years and one son.
They aren't actually separated but are going through a really bad time and brother isn't sure he wants to continue with the M. I think he was at the very beginning of a EA and it got caught just in time. I told him that after what I just went through (and am going through) that I would kill him if he ever did that. I told him he is where my H was a year and half ago and he needs to own his decisions from here on out. I told him I would give anything to be where he is right now and he better work on himself.
SIL is taking some of the blame for being a colossol bitch for the last 5 years...she's had quite a personal epiphany too and is back pedalling now trying to save her M.
I think I have to tell her to come here...but I don't know if I want her reading through all my threads from the last 6 months. I don't know.

Well, I gotta go. Off to a friends for dinner.
J~