There has been some slipping and sliding over the past four days, but overall, I’ve seen some real positives coming from H.
On Sunday, after my H had arrived home from his company’s golfing event considerably later than expected, he showed me more tenderness and attention then I can remember over all these years. He said, amidst many hugs and kisses that he’d missed me, and that he actually looked forward to coming home and being with me. I was depressed due to his lateness setting off old fears, but he was completely understanding, patient and kind. He took my hands into his, looked me straight in the eyes, and asked me tenderly if there was anything, he could do to make me feel better.
We talked for some time, his arm around me the whole while and at one point in the conversation, he told me that OW was not right for him. He also told me that I am prettier than her.
Last night, once again, he came home later than expected and once again I felt down. He assured me that he was not avoiding me, that he’d got caught up at work. He said that he had also been doing some “thinking”. He was thinking of dialogue he would you use to tell other woman, that it is over. I did not inquire any further, figured that that was a good place to leave off.
Still sensing some doubt with his comfort level regarding our M. He’d made a remark on Sunday that pointed to this feeling. He said “I don’t know, maybe I just expect too much out of life”. This was said in the context of our marital status and what lead to the affair.
I suppose this is where I step up to the plate and show him that his efforts are not wasted.
