Another month has flown by. No changes to report. I don't know what's going on with H and don't think my interactions with him are worth mentioning. Thinking of anything as a baby step automatically makes me attach expectations...which only leads to disappointment. So, I'm doing my best to try not to speculate, but it's difficult. Most importantly, I think he's still running - not facing his issues. Realizing that makes staying detached easier.
Upside: I'm moving in another month. Shopping for appliances and home stuff on my own is both fun and depressing. It's great to be able to get everything that I want, but I'd so much rather have someone to make these decisions with. Seeing all the couples and families out shopping together doesn't help - especially thinking of H doing these things with ogre. (Despite the break-up rumors, I think they're still going strong.) Mostly, I'm trying to focus on making this next place exactly how I've always imagined MY home to be, instead of thinking about what H would and wouldn't like.
OC: You are absolutely right. Ego-boosting doesn't come naturally for me, but I'm working on it. Been too busy to chat lately. When things settle down, I'll give you a call to see how things are going for you in piecing-land.
peace: Maybe I'm giving ogre too much credit, but I'm sure that my H convinced her that things were over before she entered the picture. As much as I'd like to, it's hard to blame her. At some point, we are all guilty of believing what we want to believe. At the end of it all, she'll end up another victim in this train wreck that H has created - but with no sympathy from me!
