Just had a round of emails from XH, trying to set up S15's summer schedule.
Found out from S15 that part of the time this summer they are all going to visit new Mrs. Xh's family.
Oh oh oh oh oh....I knew this was coming, of course, it is natural and to be expected. But it hurts and it makes me so angry and so sad and I just hate it.
I hate crying over things related to m unwanted D and the breakup of our family, and S15 spending time with these people and pretending it is all just okay and fine. I hate even more wondering when the f*** I'm going to reach the point that I don't cry anymore.
