Woog,
I know (and most of us here) know exactly how you feel. My dad put it best I think. He compares my sitch to grieving for a loved one who has suddenly passed away. It hurts like hell but we need to move on. Only time will slowly heal the wound.
The problem is we think that the dead loved one will come back one day. The sooner we accept the loss, the better of we will be emotionally.
I know it sucks BIG time.....for what it's worth we are not alone and have a whole bunch of cyber friends offering emotional support.
I often wonder what it would be like if i did not stumble onto this site.