I am okay today. I miss my S's, but I know how to get along as a lone individual, like riding a bicycle, for a little while at least.
I passed the 350 day mark yesterday. I held the email reminder from going out to W. She purposely takes it the wrong way anyway -- she takes it is a reminder not so much of my faithfulness to the M, but her unfaithfulness. I guess that's all my fault too -- whatever.
I am coming up on the one-year mark very quickly. There was a point in earlier months when I entertained the idea of renewing a courtship of W. But it is painfully clear she fully intends to maintain this active hostility against me, forever if she can. She won't so much as open the door even a peep. I could cure cancer and become humanitarian of the year but she will always refuse to see me for who I really am and will not acknowledge my changes.
I consider that to be her loss. (It's just too bad for my S's they too suffer this loss as a result of her self-induced blindness.)
